24 hours

So I made it 24 hours smoke free. I feel really good about it and proud of my small accomplishment. I know that it is going to be one day at a time hour by hour. The best part of my day was when my collegue asked if I wanted to go outside and I firmly said "NO". Never felt so good to say those two letters. I felt empowered, and I feel like if I can do this, I can accomplish anything. Thanks again to all my facebook and Twitter friends, you made this day so much easier for me.

lunchtime

Ok so I made it through lunch, that has to be the hardest part of the day, when no matter how busy I am I go smoke, but not today. Although I really do want to smoke, I'm also proud that I made it to this point, and want to see how much longer I can go. Even though my jaw hurts from grinind my teeth, and I can barely control my left hand, I'm going to make it!

Day one

So today is day one in my experiment to finally quit smoking after 15 years, literally I have wasted half my life and most likly thousands of dollars puffing away.
I woke up this morning feeling good, finally knowing that I am off to a brand new start! I was able to drive to the train and endure a ride from hell and not really crave one all morning. But now it's 9:15, and I feel like I have a rock in the pit of my stomache and I am grinding my teeth trying to get through this. I at least hoped that I would be able to make it until noon before feeling like this. I need to think of something to reward myself if I can make it until 4:30 without smoking, maybe a nice cold beer when I get home, or a bottle of wine, whatever it takes to get my mind off things. Breath in Breath out, move on to the next task. I need something to keep my mind and hands busy.